Finding True Home

For many on a spiritual path, feeling at home in this physical reality can be a struggle. A lingering sense of not fully belonging persists, as if something fundamental is missing. This discomfort often stems from a conditioned mindset—one that seeks meaning, validation, and security in the external world.

Living in Ubud, Bali, I often meet spiritual seekers who have been traveling extensively, searching for a place where they truly belong. Many of them lack a stable base, unsure of how long they’ll stay or whether they’ll ever leave or return. They long for a home that feels cozy, welcoming, and safe.

Yet, the ultimate home can never be found in the external world. True belonging arises only when we root ourselves in our inner core, in the peace and wholeness of our own being. It is only then that the external world begins to reflect this inner stability, guiding us to a physical place where we feel at home—not the other way around. Belonging does not come from outside sources; it emerges from within, from recognizing and embodying our spiritual essence. Only through this inward journey can we integrate our higher consciousness into our human experience.

A beautiful illustration of this is Santiago’s journey in The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho. Santiago, a shepherd, sets off in search of a treasure he saw in a dream, traveling far and wide, leaving behind everything he knows. Yet, after a long and arduous journey, he discovers that the treasure was buried exactly where he started. This story powerfully reminds us that we often seek our essence—the most valuable treasure we hold—outside of ourselves, when in truth, it has always been within us.

Ultimately, home is not a place—it is a state of being.

In this post, I’ll share my personal journey of searching for and unveiling a sense of home—the key stages and transformative processes I’ve experienced along the way. My hope is that it inspires you to connect more deeply with your own sense of home within yourself.

A Major Shift in Perspective

In 2012, something completely shifted my perception of reality. I was introduced to Light Language—the sacred geometric language of colors and shapes, passed down through the Curanderos lineage of Mexico. One of its fundamental principles is that nothing exists outside of us. The external world is not separate from our inner reality; it is a projection of our consciousness. When I encountered this wisdom, I did not resist it—it immediately resonated as truth. It explained experiences I had always observed but never understood. Most particularly, I noticed that when I felt closed off internally, connections around me would dwindle—no calls, no messages, no movement. Yet when I felt alive, open, and joyful, life seemed to flow effortlessly. More importantly, it didn’t matter whether I was at home, in my cozy bedroom, or anywhere else. My sense of comfort and belonging wasn’t tied to a specific place—it came from my sense  of connection to life itself.

After such a long time of mystery there was finally an explanation that made complete sense! Instead of seeing life as something happening to me, I began to understand that everything around me was responding to my inner state. And it was exciting!

Embracing the Mirror Effect

Another aspect of my new realization was that everything in my external reality was reflecting something within me – as per the principle as within, so without. Every situation, every relationship, every challenge—each one carried a message, guiding me toward deeper self-awareness. This shift required me to take more responsibility for my life, acknowledging that my thoughts, emotions, and energy were shaping my experiences.

Letting go of the victim mentality was not easy, because it’s quite cozy and comfortable to believe that things simply happen to us and that our power is limited to controlling external circumstances the best we can.  Society conditions us to believe that we are at the mercy of circumstances beyond our control. I gradually came to realize that every interaction and event serves as a mirror, revealing aspects of ourselves that are seeking to be seen, understood, and healed. Even those who challenge us or appear to act against us are, in their own way, offering us an opportunity to evolve.

The more I chose to embrace this perspective, the more empowered I was feeling. Instead of reacting to life, I began using it as a tool for self-discovery. My external world became a mirror of my inner state, guiding me toward self-knowledge, alignment, and growth—like a game where every detail in my outer reality pointed to something within me, inviting me to explore its deeper meaning.

Every Human as a Channel

Another profound teaching I encountered through Light Language is the realization that we are all one—meaning that every human being is both another and me at the same time. Though we appear as separate individuals, at the deepest level, we are interconnected—like drops in the same ocean, each containing the whole within us. This means that every interaction is a form of co-creation; Source speaks through all of us as one voice, whether we realize it or not.

Over time, I came to accept that nothing in our external reality is random. Every word spoken, every conversation overheard, every message encountered—even in the most unexpected places—carries meaning. If it appears in our reality, it is there for a reason. This understanding radically shifted the way I engage with life. Instead of dismissing events as mere coincidences, I began to see them as guidance—messages from the universe, orchestrated for my growth.

Embracing this awareness brought a profound sense of coherence and meaning to my life. The illusion of separation began to loosen its grip, replaced by a knowing that everything is interconnected. The world became a living dialogue, constantly communicating with me through experiences, people, and synchronicities. A strong sense of purpose was unfolding, and it felt deeply reassuring—especially after years of questioning the point of human existence, which had often felt absurd to me.

Embracing Our Creative Power

Soon after I was initiated into Light Language, a profound realization shattered my conditioned belief system while I was traveling across South America. I had grown up believing that humans do not have free will. But when I finally understood that we do, it felt as if an entirely new reality had opened up before me. I came to see that not only does our inner state shape our external reality, but that the very purpose of our human existence is to create our reality through the gift of choice.

The immense creative power within me was finally beginning to reveal itself. I was ready to explore more deeply the most powerful force of all—our spiritual essence—which I also believe is the only true home.

However, recognizing that we are the creators of our reality becomes especially challenging when we face difficulties. It requires us to acknowledge that even hardships serve a purpose in our evolution. In a world where drama prevails, it takes a great deal of maturity and wisdom to see that those who trigger us and push our buttons are not obstacles but messengers. We are constantly taught that “bad guys” are everywhere—that they want to harm us, and that we need someone or something to save us and punish them. Shifting our perspective to see that these so-called bad guys may actually be revealing our wounds and patterns that need healing is not easy to accept.

This is where I believe many of us struggle. It’s easy to embrace the idea of being creators when life flows smoothly, but when it comes to our deepest wounds—especially those tied to family and past traumas—it becomes far more difficult. The mind clings to stories of blame, to narratives that shape our identity based on what has happened to us.

I like to use the metaphor of a storm to illustrate the difference between victim and creator consciousness. When you're in the midst of it—battered by strong winds, tossed in all directions—it feels overwhelming, as though external forces are dictating your fate. But there is one place where everything remains still: the eye of the storm. Aligning with your inner world is like standing in that still center, observing life from the peaceful core of your being. From there, you can detach from the illusion of drama and witness events without being swept away by them.

So, a key question in fully embracing our creative power—and our sense of home—is this: Are we willing to let go of the illusion of our past stories? Are we ready to release the past that we have allowed to define us?

I believe this is crucial—until we release our past stories and rise above the illusion, a genuine sense of home remains inaccessible. It takes courage to awaken to the deeper truth that we are, and always have been, the creators of our journey.

Ironically enough, we are the ones creating the very illusions we chase, designing them so that we can choose—again and again—between illusion and truth. It seems like God has a sense of humor...

There Is No Outside

If you search for "home" in the physical world, you may find yourself trapped in an endless loop of seeking without ever feeling truly settled. This is because our external reality is nothing more than a projection—a simulation.

Imagine playing a video game so intensely that you start believing you are the character on the screen. You forget that you’re merely operating a program designed for a temporary experience. We know well how unhealthy it is when children become overly absorbed in video games, losing touch with reality. The same principle applies to identifying too much with the physical world. When you mistake the external world for your true self, you disconnect from what is essential. You lose sight of your core. You fall asleep, believing in the dream projected onto the screen of your inner vision.

The essential point here is that searching for home outside of your spiritual essence is like trying to find meaning in your life in a video game—it will always leave you feeling incomplete. This is why it is crucial not to identify with your body, thoughts, emotions, or external circumstances. True happiness and belonging are found only by turning inward, where your real essence resides.

Home Has No Physical Location

The only place we can ever truly feel at home is not a location—it is our core. It has no measurements, no physicality, no defined space. It is everything and nothing at the same time. Yet, our ego convinces us that "home" is tied to a specific place—a certain city, country, or group of familiar people.

This doesn’t mean we can’t feel at home in a physical place. Certain locations do resonate with our soul at different points in our journey. However, if you are not at peace within yourself, even the most aligned place will feel uncomfortable, distorted, or incomplete. For example, if Hawaii matches your soul’s energy at this moment, but you are not internally centered, your experience of Hawaii will still feel off.

I do believe though, that the moment you fully step into your core—anchoring yourself in your essence—your corresponding home in the external world will reveal itself to you almost instantly!

Home is not a physical place, nor is it even within ourselves. It is a state of being—a deep, ever-present essence that transcends space, time, and form. It is not something we must seek. It is something we already are.

The question is: Will we recognize it?

The Only Liberation: Finding Yourself

At the end of the day, what we are truly seeking is ourselves. When we stop chasing illusions and finally rest within our own being, the world around us begins to align.

Freedom has nothing to do with going wherever you want, whenever you want, or acquiring wealth, power, or status. True freedom is not about the physical world at all. It is not about where you are—it is about who you recognize yourself to be.

The only real freedom is freedom from the ego identity. It is the recognition that you are not your body, not your mind, not your thoughts, and not your emotions. You are the awareness that observes them all. Your body is simply a vessel—a tool that allows you to interact with the physical world. Your mind is another tool, helping you navigate this illusion of reality. But your essence? Your essence is neither a vessel nor a tool. It is eternal, unbound, and untouched by time or space. Your body will disappear. Your mind will fade. But your essence remains—because it has never been anything but pure being.

This is true liberation: realizing that you are not limited to the form you temporarily inhabit. You are the formless presence, the silent witness beyond all movement, beyond all perception, beyond all illusion.

So what is freedom? It is the complete integration of this understanding: that all of it—time, space, the body, the external world—is a projection of consciousness. The only reality is Being. The moment we fully embody this, we are home.